I know I havent written anything for quite some time on here so I apologise for that, I have found the last few weeks have gone so fast it has been a blur and to be honest I dont really know if I am coming or going!
I am now three weeks clear of all of my treatments! Wahoo! <<does a little dance>> I finished my Radiotherapy on the 24th of April. I have to say that I found the Radiotherapy to be a piece of cake compared to the chemo. Yes its inconvenient going in every day especially at middle day, but the appointments were quick and on time. No more waiting for hours in the depressing Oncology Waiting Room. The staff and nurses were lovely, it felt like there was more interaction with them than before, but I think that was more to do with how I was feeling, I was more relaxed and didnt get nervous before the treatments like I did for my chemo.
Each session took around 10 mins, with the exception of the first couple which took longer as they were setting up and preparing me and describing what is going to happen. I didnt find any of the Radiotherapy process scary, in fact I was almost captivated by the machines and the way they move around you and the technology is amazing!
I found myself quite often escaping to another place in my head and would actually almost doze off at times, even the nurses commented on how relaxed I was. There is no point in getting worked up, there is nothing to worry about and it just makes it uncomfortable if you are tense as the position you have to lie in isnt the most natural feeling in the world 🙂
I found walking out of the hospital on my last day quite emotional, I had been told that quite often people find it scary when you finish as there is no structure with appointments and being around health professionals so much. I must admit I poo pooed this, but have to admit it is real.. I walked out of there thinking…. what do I do now….. For a brief moment I felt quite lost.
Luckily I am a positive thinker and also keep myself busy with lots of things, such as getting back to work, organising a fundraising “End of Celebration” Party, being part of the committee for Gloucestershire Pride and so on….. I think sometimes I take on too much, but other times I just love it!
I have found I have good days and bad days emotionally, mostly good but when I get tired I get quite down as I feel frustrated at not doing what I want to do. I have returned to work now, my first week was a 4 dayer and I did mornings only and that was ok. I felt ok during the week but the weekend, wow I was hit for six! I was as much use as a chocolate tea pot! I had all these plans of tidying the flat so that I can get an estate agent round to get it valued. I am really keen to move now, I am desperate for a place with a garden and have seen a place I fell for so am itching to get things into place but tidying my flat is my nemesis!
This is my second week back at work and I did my first full day yesterday and boy oh boy did I feel tired afterwards! I had to man up and get my tired butt to choir, as I have joined a choir in Cheltenham that is part of the Everyman Theatre. I am the only “true” newbie this term as everyone else has been going for some time now so clever me joins when they have a massive concert happening in July! All 8 everyvoice choirs are joining on the main stage to perform songs and guess which choir pretty much sings every song…. yup mine! So I have shit loads to learn and I am struggling so any tips from my actor chums on how to learn lyrics would be most gratefully received!
Links to the show: http://www.everymantheatre.org.uk/m-shows/ev-one-voice-everyvoice-concert/
Well that’s it for now I am going to write a post about my End of Celebration Fundraiser. 🙂 Ta ra xx